#the funny thing is that my family was always weirded out that i consider health unimportant. like hearing all about how ugly people shouldnt #come out of their houses and how they should wear oversized things and nothing else and how the fat and the disabled shouldnt come out #either because theyre 'ugly' and the constant stream of my grandma whispering incredibly mean things into my ear whenever she #saw someone she deemed ugly on the street just kinda did something to me i think #she also like constantly weighed me and always talk about how girls shouldnt eat any chocolate or sweets because if chubby women #have big asses and no man will ever want a woman with a fat ass #yeah like i think that may have altered my psychic state in an irreparable way.
#you see the problem is that when i was a kid all i had going for me were my looks and looks were the most important thing in my family #like for real you dont know what hell on earth is until my grandma co-raises you.
